Make it go away….
Good mornings Gods and Goddesses!
Once again I was so taken by your comments on the last blog that my plan for chatting about soy and poo has been derailed! Plus, I have to get on a plane in an hour and I don’t want to rush the facts. Bav, girrrrl you always inspire me. This one is for you and for US. Hope it helps….
How do we live with the judge, jury and executioner that is scan/test time? How do we live with canSer without thinking of dying everyday? Man, I have been working on mastering that question for nearly 5 years now. As you know, I have a canSer that may never “go away”. If you have watched my film then you have witnessed my struggle and unwavering desire to cure myself. Well, in the past year some big healing lights have blazed through the darkness of my reality.
I had the BIG “C” which = CANCER. Now, I have the little “c” which = chronic. I don’t think of my tumors as deadly little parasites that MUST get the hell out of dodge, because if they don’t then I will not rest, nope, I see them as a part of me that has wandered off, is confused, needs some loving and is ready for health but maybe not in my time frame. It took me a long time to get to cancer (not that I created it) and healing will take an equal load of soul-maturing patience. *Note: this is what works for me, you don’t have to agree, I’m just telling my shit like it is..that said:
When you embrace this lifestyle you may expect instant changes, better scans, tumors to dissolve and a Macy’s day parade to be thrown in your honor – I did. Guess what? All those wonderful things may happen. If they do you better write about it on this blog! LOL. On the flip side (cause ka-ching has a twin brother named Ka-splat) you may not see one change in the cancer. It may even grow. Naturally, this will be discouraging. But let me reveal the bigger pix of this BRILLIANT health painting. You will see other ailments vanish, you will feel empowered, you will feel like you’re stepping up to the green plate of life, you will watch your relationships change, you will trim the fat and cut the dead weight, you will get closer to YOUR God and begin to see that you have a direct line for a chat any ole time, and you WILL heal. You may not be cured, but you will heal.
When I stopped focusing on being cured I started healing and LIVING in a MASSIVE way. I remember walking down the aisle at my wedding, I was loaded with “beauty marks” AKA tumors and the underlying tone of the evening was of tender magic and spirit. People laughed and cried in a way they wouldn’t have if my fate was less know. But there I was, planning for my future and whispering “not today fear, I gotta soak this up like a juicy ray of sunshine, plus I look awesome and I want to be the queen!”
Sometimes we’re gonna move like crabs in life and in cancer. Crabs get to the joint but they move sideways, backwards and all wonkily to do it. Your set backs are part of the process, hard to imagine but true. Cancer really doesn’t want to kill me, I’m the host, if it fucks up the party who else is gonna buy the keg?
Tools that have helped me before scans or tests:
1. Replace “please Jesus, Buddha, Elvis, make it go away” with Jesus, Buddha, Elvis, thank you for my perfect health”
2. Meditate on the scan bed. I have a tribe of protectors on the other side and they all come wearing white, banging drums, smokin’ peace pipes (filled with GOOD green grass, and not the wheat grass kind) and they create sacredness. When team spirit arrives no matter what happens I am not alone.
3. Go to your scan or test with someone who makes you feel happy.
4. If you get bad news, let it sink in, cry, spit, yell and sleep, then get your tush to the computer and come tell us about it. We will give you electronic hugs, help you get back in the game and send you to the juicer and to the garden.
5. Believe in your heart that canSer cowgirls and chaps are cut from a different cloth, you are enrolled in a selective phD program of life, you are one step away from buddhahood. What is this cobra trying to teach you? Make it active so you don’t become passive and fall into victim mode. Replace fear with curiosity.
6. Change your focus, what gives you the greatest joy? For me it’s creativity (blogged about fear a few moths back). Near scan time I write up a storm and my camera gets massive loving.
7. Do something really good for yourself the day before and the day after your scans. Have a massage and swipe the canSer card, see a great flick and plan the best day ever. It’s a re-boot and it will bring you back to the moment. Right now I’m not dying, I’m flying through the air on the trapeze or I’m running with my pooch on the beach.
When we die, all we have is memories. Make lots of them.
Remember that life isn’t greener on the other side. This is it it it, don’t put your happiness AND your livin’ on hold. What if the little chronic hangs out till you’re 90, but since you wanted it gone so bad you wasted all your years in worry and fright. I know my experience is different from most, but it’s the only place I can write from. I haven’t had to deal with chemo and radiation or with an agressive canSer like many of you. But I have had to learn to go the distance with something that is totally unknown, with no cure and no proven treatment. I could do chemo right now but I have been told time and time again that the canSer may shrink but it ain’t gonna vanish. So my choice has been to focus on the abundant QUALITY of my life and to plan for an techincolor future.
An attitude of gratitude for all that my guru teaches me helps me wipe out the torture mental shackles and self-imposed prison life. I am free NOW.
What helps you? What can you share with us today?
Big love and peace and freedom,
K
PS. So many new comers to the blof this week, welcome! Thanks james Frame for all your wisdom. James is one of my health peeps. He’s got A LOT of knowledge and great advise so when he post ya’ll ask questions! I know I will.
PSS. XOXXO to Bav and and all you angels who are waiting for news and fastening your seat belt for the drive to the canServille check point. I will meditate on your happiness.
Off to the Lance Armstrong Foundation and then a week of teaching at Hippocrates! Can’t wait to blog from the wheat grass palace!
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The National Institutes of Health maintain a database of chemicals in all kinds of household products. The information seems to be supplied from manufacturers and product labels.
There’s only partial info for a lot of products. Still, it’s a rather comprehensive database. You can look up anything from kitty litter to printer ink cartridges.
Kris
Thank you for having such a great site where people can come and chat with others.
Sometimes it is hard to hear what you are not ready to hear. But I want to thank everyone for writing me back a post because I have taken in what each of you have said and I am very greatful that people I do not know have taken the time to help me.
Slayer
Basic me –
as i was reading your post, I was reminded (once again) how the cancer community has touched my life. I agree with so much of what you said, and how everyone here is so awesome. When I saw what you wrote about “jaimie”, I thought, does she mean me, or the other jamie, and I thought, it doesn’t matter! We’re all so awesome here! :) When I was going through my HSIL at sloan, I would meet amazing people in the waiting room, or when I would go places with the LAF…..I have made friends for life. There is a certain depth to people in these situations, an unspoken understanding….a sensitivity, maybe. I can’t find the right words! :( But it is soooooo inspiring, and so refreshing and invigorating. It helps keep me motivated to work in oncology. Every day, I have to remind myself of this when I start feeling helpless, or question my career path……the hope is infectious.
be well.
jaime
CanSer Soul sister Kris, Please teach me all your wisdom about making peace with “stable”. I’ve been doing lots of thinking and praying and I’m doing ok with it, so far that is…. Don’t know that the doctors are going to decide, but I know I don’t want to continue with the study. I wonder if I’m making a mistake, but I’m putting all my faith where faith belongs…in God. I want to focus on controlling what I can in my life and if all that I do keeps my “chronic” stable, then I’m good with that:) Since you and I have the same chronic, please share with me all you wisdom so I can live the beautiful life too.
Becky, How did it go this morning???
Hi Kris and all y’all!
Does anyone who is raw have the experience of too much energy to sleep? I am 3 weeks raw today and boy, my mind will not stop going…I go to bed early so I get 9-11 hours (optimum for immune system health) but I get where I feel like I almost have too much energy at night!!!!
I did yoga last night, that helped…crazy but most of my life I HAD to nap and now I can’t slow down! Where is the control switch!!?
btw, got my first green ph strip in the am-what a great feeling to be 7.0!!
Debbie
CLL survivor with a Chronic case of LIFE!
Hi Kris and everybody, i am fairly new here although i have posted some comments in the past. My mom has CLL (chronic lymphocytic leukemia) i believe one of the bloggers here has CLL as well (debbie)..and i have been soaking up all the valuable info here. I read everyday new things and its quite amazing. I do have a juicer and have been using it everyday. I love it and i even got my mom to drink the green stuff every morning!!
Callie: I bought the pumpkin 3 in 1 from bath and body works but haven’t used it yet!! Now i am so looking forward to using it. I’ve also used Method’s products and like them as well.
Thanks everybody for all you do here! I hope i can join in, in the fun!!
Michelle
Hi All,
Just an FYI, sometimes they have factory reconditioned juicers on Amazon. I got a Breville for 37.50 with free shipping! Amazon has a very good return policy. I’ve gotten other refurbished products before from them and hadn’t had an issue. I just took a look and their prices have gone up(maybe because we are all buying juicers!) but they are still under 70 bucks. This might not be the ideal for everyone but may be good for those low on funds or who want to get their feet wet without a serious committment.
Hi everyone! Got the results from my scan today! First I am so glad we did it in person. So, there is shrinkage!!!! Each tumor went down by 1 centimeter, the one near my pancreas is comopletely gone and the doc said that he and the radiologist agree that they don’t look as bright as they have which could mean they are less active. Well, bright around the edges. He said that may not neccessarily be right, but he is an optimist. So, a babystep, but a step!!!! So, I came home and completely crashed. I cannot believe how tired I am right now. I was trying to be so calm yesterday and today that it just about wiped me out! :) So tonight my hubby and I are going out to dinner and I am going to have me a big GREEN salad and a nice martini. How’s that for a little contrast. I just had a big piece of chocolate cake too! And then back to the healthy greens. I so believe that this is helping, along with the excercise and positive thoughts. On to the next. Thank you for thinking of me, Charleen, Bav and everyone.
And Charleen, it sounds right to me that you are listening to God and your heart. Whatever you do, we’ll be cheering you on.
I have heard from some of the girls in my thyroid cancer posse that spinach does a number on the uptake of synthroid. Which is bad news bears, cause if it doesn’t work, I’m like a zombie…literally, only minus the brain eating part. Has anyone else heard this?? I’m new to juicing and I know I need to add more green…is kale in the same family as spinach? Any ideas what else I can add besides cukes and celery?
Becky- I’m so happy to hear the GREAT news! Isn’t it amazing how emotionally taxing this whole canSer thing can be?!?! I love the salad/martini contrast…oh, and the chololate cake…Yumm! Right up my alley sistah! You gave me an idea for dinner tonight:) Sleep, relax, induldge and enjoy…you deserve it!
Hey Michelle, Your mom is so lucky to have you for a daughter… if you don’t cure her you will for sure make her life better and longer-BELIEVE in the Greens!
Try reading the Simontens Getting Well, I do the visualization/relaxation 3x a day. I visualize the loopy dumb lost leukemia cells, like gray discs, floating in my healthy blood, then my killer white sharks (my killer cells) come and rip them apart into dust…then I go on to visit each birthday I WILL have, starting at 60(i,m 48 now) blowing out my candles every five years, seeing my milestones, seeing me healthy, strong and teaching others how to do this disease in..all the way to 100 when my now old lady kids cannot keep up with me on a hike!!!
It helps so much, all us chronic chicks can use this to chill the fear and up the courage big time!!
Tell your mom she is not alone and guess what, chronic means it is NOT an emergency and today, all is well and you are alive so live like you mean it!
love Debbie Chronic Liver of Life
PS My Onc,s Prognosis of 7-10 years MY ASS!! I don’t buy it.
CanSer Cowgirls, I just came across a wonderful verse from Psalm 131
“… I don’t concern myself with matters too great or awesome for me …” We are free to live out our purpose when we relinquish control of the things that don’t belong to us in the first place. Such as — worry about things over which we have no control; or trying to control something we have no business trying to control.
With all the blogersations going on, I thought this was so very appropriate…
Becky,
Great news! Enjoy your evening out, especially that martini!
Cheryl
Congrats to all you fine healthy cowgirls!
Hi All!
Becky, as per our phone conversation earlier, wooohoooo! I have been on such a high after talking to you, I am just so incredibly pleased at your news. Celebrate, Girl, it is your time.
Callie, thank you so much for your kind compliment. Things have been a bit rough at my end, so that was a much needed boost. Hugs.
Anne – YES! Emotional detox included. Personally, I believe all the toxic crap that builds up in our body affects a most sensitive organ that we know oh so little about, the brain. I absolutely think that as you go through the process you may have “releases” of emotional crap from time to time. Your brain is being cleansed, just as everything else is as you detox, and all that emotional memory is stored up there. As you continue with the lifestyle, this will eventually dissipate, so hang in there. In the meantime, when that happens, find what works for you in getting over the hump. For me, it’s surfing. Always lifts me up, connects me with nature, which for me, is connecting with my spirit.
Slayer, one last comment on your colon screening, my friend. A compromise I often make with people who for whatever reason do not want to get screened – stool cards. You take ‘em home, (ok, this next part is gross, sorry) smear a little poop on them, and mail them back to your doctor. Everything you need is included in the stool card kit. It tests for microscopic blood, (blood you can’t see with the naked eye), which is often the first sign of a problem. Don’t know if this seems like the same thing as a big invasive test to you or not, but it is often a great alternative. You get screened, but it is only a little poop smearing!!
I forget who was asking about recipes, but check one of Kris’ previous posts, she lists a bunch of her favorite recipes right in the original post.
Ok, tired, time to unwind and relax. I think of you all during my day, I am always sending you much love and light.
b
Kris, I loved the post about coffee. I’ve had no problem cutting out coffee, meat, or dairy, but white sugar? Man, that addiction is strong.
I had a revelation with the help of my therapist (herself a canser cowgirl & juicing vegan). She said she knew of a cowgirl who refused to give up on her MickyD’s. She embraced all other healing methods – meditation, yoga, etc., but loved, and I mean loved, her fast food. She would sit and enjoy her burger & fries and just feel that she was nourishing herself with each bite. And the key words in that last sentence are “enjoy” and “nourish” – there was no guilt, just the knowledge that she was taking care of herself and not depriving herself of anything. And, yes, she outlived all predictions.
Now, the lesson that I take from that story is NOT to run out and embrace fast food per se, but to embrace your non-perfection (something I’ve never been good at – no wonder it doesn’t come any easier when dealing with illness). So now I take myself out for a monthly baked good/sugary treat fix. My November treat was a slice of chocolate cream pie at my favorite diner. I sat at the counter & chatted with the waitresses & loved every bite. No guilt. Back to veggies with a side of whole grains for dinner, but that slice of pie will carry me through to next month…
Bav, we met at the “Cancer Stinks Happy Hour” at Una. You tried to convince me to play hookey & head to NY with you. I declined for a job interview. I got the job, but still regret passing up the offer. Hope to see you at the next get-together…
I love juicing with carrots and apples together. It is really good! I haven’t done a lot of greens. I will try soon though. I have your book Kris so I will get information from there. Thanks for your book. I am 4 year stage IV colon cancer. Sue
MIRIAM,
I tried emailing you, but yahoo keeps sending it back to me saying I have wrong address!
So glad to hear about job, that was one of my questions for you. Congratulations!
If you want, email me, bav68@yahoo.com
Big hugs,
b
Kris,
you are an inspiration to those diagnosed and those not yet diagnosed…you have come up in at least 5 conversations with people I have run across in several different cities in the last 2 weeks (in Oklahoma of all places). You go girl!
I keep your book by my bedside :)
Mel ~ wow great links! thanks! :) phosphates…do products that contain it actually say “phosphates” on the label? or do they label and hide it by something we cant even pronounce?lol
Oh and kitty liter -lol- ahhh a subject near and dear to my heart lol! Have you tried swheat scoop?
It’s AWESOME ! No nasty clay (who wants to breath that crap in!) no chemicals of any kind, all it is -is wheat lol! and the beautiful thing about it is- it ACTUALLY CLUMPS AND WORKS WOOO HOOO! I have tried so many ‘natural’ cat liters over the years and they all sucked! Swheat scoop is awesome, you gotta try it :)
I just bought another bag of it, 40 pound bag for $24 bucks and its worth every penny… I buy it at the healthy pet stores, oh and some Petsmarts, and Petco’s s carry it too, oh yeah I also have bought it at Target too, lol)
The thing I love most is that I don’t have to breath that crappy clay dust in anymore… That clay dust in cat litters is so bad for the lungs! Not to mention the cats lungs, and all the chemicals on their paws, and then they lick their paws and ingest all those toxic chemicals…Anyway all you cat people check it out :) also check this site out for holistic info and treatments for cats– I love this site!
http://www.holisticat.com/articles.htm
Lisa ~ nice tip about the refurb Breville, I’m going to tell my aunt about it :)
Charleen ~ I love Psalms :)…and love what you said to Kris about< "I'm putting all my faith where faith belongs...in God. ">
thats so true! :)
sue ~ i just did that today! funny you should mention it lol! this was the first time..2 big carrots, and 2 small apples, sooo good!
And CONGRATS on you all who had good scans/results etc. ROCK ON GIRLS!
Hi All, Just checking in. Had a great day with hubby, he got off work at 1pm so we spent the day together, always a treat. I have been off of soda for 2 days,(always has been diet soda, but I know I need to give it up) talk about a baby step. The only problem with all this water is the bladder issue. I have a weak bladder because of my surgery so I have to stay near or at least scope out every rest room I can. :) Callie, I hope they didn’t work you to hard today. We will be doing the boat tour tomorrow, but maybe I will See ya’ll at the track on Sunday. Well, all you Cowgirls, I will close for now. Kris, Hope you are not working too Hard, haven’t seen you on here since your original post?? Take care of yourself, I know you are doing alot things with “us” in mind, but the last thing we want is for to knock yourself out!! Take Care All, and Be Blessed!! Susan
P.S. Thanks Slayer!!
Kris ~ I LOVE LOVE what you said about not pushing your husband to be vegan because you like marriage! LOL! thats so right on! So many people in my life friends/family,co workers etc, have bad, horrible, marriages (divorced now, or on the verge of it, due to the wives pushing their husbands all the time into things they really dont want to do. Or just trying to constantly control their husbands. Give the guy a break ya know, he works, supports the family, is a good hubby, a good dad, so what if he wants to eat a hambuger lol! or wants to go bowling with the guys on a friday night. Most hubbys work so hard for their families, and they deserve to be happy and appreciated too! :)
Just found your blog, after seeing your doc and being so tremendously inspired by it awhile back. I was diagnosed autoimmune hypothyroid a little over a year ago, which has totally disrupted me. I am currently adopting an 80-10-10 (ala Doug Graham) raw vegan diet) and, although it’s still early, am having promising results. I think you’re right about having to stop the focus on the cure. I think it’s a journey of soul healing, these things, be it cancer, thyroid problems, or whatever else is thrown at us, and to not seize the opportunity I think is to waste the gift of illness. Of course that’s much more easily said than done, but I think it’s true. I love what you said in the documentary about how you wouldn’t give it to someone else, but it’s still a gift (or something to that effect).
I have started a blog about my own journey to healing at http://www.blueskieswithin.blogspot.com.
Anyway, you totally rock, and I wish you a fantastic continued adventure.
Hi Kris! I was actually just needing some advice. For the past two years I have managed to baffle the medical community. No doctor has pretended to offer treatment because none of them can figure out what is wrong with me. Currently I have acupuncture three times a week and I am thinking about eliminating meats from my diet. I was wondering what the best way is to start that process, or do I do it all at once? Thanks.
Casey
hey – thank you for the movie. my father has a serious cancer and we went right away to the Hippocrates Center. He’s not quite able to go yet (too weak) but we started bringing some of the ideas home – it was a new road to take when it seemed that there were none left.
-peace and rock
Rony
thank you for the movie – it inspired us to get my dad on wheatgrass and we’ve also signed him up for the Hippocrates Center. He has a very nasty cancer, but this path looks like a good one (chemo is not going anywhere).
keep on rocking!
-peace
rony
Hi guys,
WOW… what an inspiration, reading everyones blogs! THANKS!
I too, am living my journey~ beginning the day after Thanksgiving 06.
I had 2 strokes in December, then a dissected internal carotid artery (turned into a shriveled up fishing worm), another incident in April, thyroid removal in May… then CanSer… I joined the ‘C’ club! My actual first thought, after “Oh sh!t”. Then the radiation, all along feeling exhausted, frail and down right poopy. I am very lucky to be mobile, yet I find things periodically that I have a hard time doing… such as, determining left/right, adding above 10, concentrating
During this time, I was seperated from my husband, and raising a 15 year old son, who did not seem to think he needed to kick in and step up.
I just had another round of bloodwork, and my ‘USC cancer bloodwork’ will be done soon, then on to another round of scans and emotions.
I see the Dr on tuesday for a plan..
In late September, I went into what I called my ‘DR Denial’ mode. I was not going to push them, I just wanted to turn 40 and celebrate with a party!
Actually, I really wanted to go Paragliding….. but I was dumb enough to mention it to my Dr and he promptly nixed the idea! So, I went horse back riding instead… It was really wonderful until I got bucked off.
I feel like I have turned into schlepp-rock.
I know this is a bad mindset… but I have a way of keeping it at bay on occasion… It’s okay to make light of it all.
You are reminding me of what is really important…. every minute I get to breathe!
Thanks for your support and encouragement, it’s all so overwhelming, yet I can look at it as a gift… and look at what has come out of it. I have made so many friends, so many bonds. And at 40, I have a long way yet to go!!!!
You all rest up and take good care!
Kris…I just started reading your book! I am so glad you wrote…as many people have told me to write a book about my experience with cancer…you beat me to it. Read my blog…I only have one entry on cancer. The Big C. I have Colon Cancer Stage 3C. you are the bomb and we think alike. Thank you for the book. Hope to see documentary soon.
hey kris – I don’t have cancer but I have some other insidious thing that seems to throw new tricks my way about twice a year! I wanted to say I love your 10 tricks for dealing with the scanning anxiety…
I loved this one:
4. If you get bad news, let it sink in, cry, spit, yell and sleep, then get your tush to the computer and come tell us about it. We will give you electronic hugs, help you get back in the game and send you to the juicer and to the garden.
http://disadventure.com/?p=454
Here’s where I talked about my own bad news experience – It’s funny, the more I get it, the better I get at dealing with it. I think I’m just becoming more my own person!
Although I have been following these blogs and posts for quite sometime, this is my first comment. I, like many of you are a cancer survivor. At 34 years old, mother of 2 small children (4 and 1 at the time) I was diagnosed with a very aggressive form of breast cancer. Fortunately, I knew enough to do self exams and found this lump myself. Although the cancer invaded my muscle, it did not invade my lymph nodes! Now, a little over a year later (my children are now 5 and 2) I have 1 infusion left, with intense chemo ending last January and radiation ending last March! I have undergone a bi-lateral mastectomy and because of complications I have not been able to reconstruct….but with some healing I hope to be able to before a few years are up.
I really enjoyed the movie and as it has done for so many, inspired me to continue healing and try new things too. Just before I saw the movie I started juicing and investigating the raw diet. I am saving and saving for a trip to Hipprocrates (medical bills and childcare through treatments have set me back quite a bit.) It was so reassuring to see the movie and to have my aspirations confirmed. I LOVE my green juice and really look forward to drinking it everyday. I was turned onto wheatgrass from a fellow breast cancer friend and have been enjoying that too, really noticing the effects. I have been transitioning my diet for a while and am close to a raw diet, although I still can’t seem to figure out what to have for dinner. I have an intense cleanse planned for immediately after Thanksgiving, I actually can’t wait.
I do want some feedback from people about this ongoing question about juicers. I have used the Breville and the Omega 8005. They are different types of juicers and both easy to use and clean. I find the Breville easier to use because of the wide mouth, but all the ‘top dog’ nutritionist push the masticating type like the Omega model. The Breville does not do wheatgrass, but I have a manual one I use that it is just fine. Does anyone have an opinion on the how the Breville does leafy greens and if the masticating kind IS more nutritious? The Breville claims it does leafy greens because you can change the speed. With an option of both kinds which do you all prefer?
So, Kris thanks for keeping us cancer folks together. It is important to stay together and keep living for the moment. I am sorry that I missed seeing you at your premiere in New Milford, Ct. (I was running in the Race for the Cure in Boston and couldn’t get back in time.) I also go to Joe’s Salon. Everyone there is terrific and have wonderful things to say about you. Hopefully one day our paths will cross.
-Laura
Although I have been following these blogs and posts for quite sometime, this is my first comment. I, like many of you are a cancer survivor. At 34 years old, mother of 2 small children (4 and 1 at the time) I was diagnosed with a very aggressive form of breast cancer. Fortunately, I knew enough to do self exams and found this lump myself. Although the cancer invaded my muscle, it did not invade my lymph nodes! Now, a little over a year later (my children are now 5 and 2) I have 1 infusion left, with intense chemo ending last January and radiation ending last March! I have undergone a bi-lateral mastectomy and because of complications I have not been able to reconstruct….but with some healing I hope to be able to before a few years are up.
I really enjoyed the movie and as it has done for so many, inspired me to continue healing and try new things too. Just before I saw the movie I started juicing and investigating the raw diet. I am saving and saving for a trip to Hipprocrates (medical bills and childcare through treatments have set me back quite a bit.) It was so reassuring to see the movie and to have my aspirations confirmed. I LOVE my green juice and really look forward to drinking it everyday. I was turned onto wheatgrass from a fellow breast cancer friend and have been enjoying that too, really noticing the effects. I have been transitioning my diet for a while and am close to a raw diet, although I still can’t seem to figure out what to have for dinner. I have an intense cleanse planned for immediately after Thanksgiving, I actually can’t wait.
I do want some feedback from people about this ongoing question about juicers. I have used the Breville and the Omega 8005. They are different types of juicers and both easy to use and clean. I find the Breville easier to use because of the wide mouth, but all the ‘top dog’ nutritionist push the masticating type like the Omega model. The Breville does not do wheatgrass, but I have a manual one I use that it is just fine. Does anyone have an opinion on the how the Breville does leafy greens and if the masticating kind IS more nutritious? The Breville claims it does leafy greens because you can change the speed. With an option of both kinds which do you all prefer?
So, Kris thanks for keeping us cancer folks together. It is important to stay together and keep living for the moment. I am sorry that I missed seeing you at your premiere in New Milford, Ct. (I was running in the Race for the Cure in Boston and couldn’t get back in time.) I also go to Joe’s Salon. Everyone there is terrific and have wonderful things to say about you. Hopefully one day our paths will cross.
-Laura
Hi Kris,
Need your help!
it’s deeply troubling that promising therapy may be killed by bureaucracy; more than 500,000 Americans are currently living with lymphoma, and this is the only effective therapy for many who fail standard chemotherapy.
Now that the ruling is final, no member of the public is able to speak directly to anyone at CMS about the issue. One can contact senators, and ask them to intervene on behalf of lymphoma patients everywhere by telling CMS to reverse its ruling. I’m hoping that you could do the same or help building media profile. It has to be done now, if we’re to get this ruling reversed. If not, people will die needlessly. It’s that brutally simple.
For more information, please see these links:
Background provided by Patients Against Lymphoma (PAL)
http://www.lymphomation.org/CMS-call.htm#background
http://lymphomation.org/wordpress/?p=14
The ruling is contained in CMS-1392-FC; a draft of the document is available at:
http://www.cms.hhs.gov/QuarterlyProviderUpdates/downloads/cms1392p.pdf
If you need to conact me, please write to agoanes@gmail.com, Anna
I just saw your spot on Montell. As to not repeat any descriptions of your strength, I’d liken it to Godzilla, with cancer being Tokyo…
The path from the darkness or fear that you described is what inspired me to write.
I’m not a cancer carrier (that I know of), I do have one tumor (that I know of) but the doctor said it is malignant.
But I am at war with cancer, and in recovery. A few years ago, I lost a good friend to cancer (Nathaniel Viventi Sonne – 17), a few years later, I lost another good friend (Wendy James – 25, I think, you know women and their ages). I dealth with those losses, through tears and get togethers and got past the feelings.
On Nov.2 2007, I lost the girl I was seeing (Rebecca Allen – 27) to cancer related infections. Her PCOS led to Ovarian Cancer and though she fought it like hell, one night she didn’t wake up. A night that she was to be with me, but stayed home because she was too tired to travel. We were planning a future, two kids, a trip next year, moving in. We had been engaged once before, and this time we were going to do it right.
I was gutted, crippled, and emotionally incapacitated for a couple days. I pulled it together just enough to get through the viewing, but I lost it at the funeral.
Fetal position, clutching my pillow seemed like a really good idea, until I started getting signs that she was still with me. Just crazy ish, like random people having a discussion about her name for no reason (yah, it was funny). Especially since neither of them knew her, or her connection to me.
But, the people in my life kept me a 24 hr watch for over a week. I couldn’t go 60 minutes without having to check in (the fear of me jumping off something tall, I guess).
Soon, I took a step back and thought, If someone else close to me had passed and Bee was here, what would she say to me. She’d have her foot up my ass for even thinking about quitting.
I began to focus on what was going on in my life, making myself business, and using my feelings as motivation, rather than a obstacle.
It’s been a week. I feel stronger. Not sure when my heart will open again, but I know that life will go on.
The last thing I said to her was “I love you”, it was the last thing she said to me. That saying about make the last thing you say to someone count, isn’t just cliche, I’m living proof….
Thank you
Susan
There is no need for sorrys. I do understand that you what you wrote came from your heart which is all that anyone can ask for. I should have not taken it so hard.
Thank you for caring enough to help me with my indecision.
Slayer
November 9, 2007